February 20th, 2013 "First Two Weeks of February"

Blink of an eye, January and February just gonna pass like that and it's gonna be March already in about 2 more weeks. It's true when they say time flies when you are having fun. The first 2 weeks of February have been awesome to me. It's been a busy busy one though with all the holidays and important days combining together. The first weekend of Feb have been a chill one, just spending lots of quality time with C and watched Ah Boys To Men Part II at Vivo with C and her friends on Saturday the 2nd. The second weekend of February onwards have been a busy one with all the long weekends and such due to Chinese New Year! We all booked out on the 8th Friday and I rushed down to Tampines to meet Sara Moi to buy her Samsung S3 after using my iPhone for the longest time. Just decided to try out something new and sort of a birthday present to myself. Went to sold my iPhone after that then met up C at Serangoon Gardens. They were singing K with Adeve, Guoren and Val. Then we went to HappyDaze for beers with Daryl, Sin, Abby and Natasha too after that. After a bucket of beer we went to grab supper at a nearby Prata House then I stayed over at C's house for the night. Woke up next morning on the 9th Saturday (CNY Eve) and headed back to my grandpa's house to fetch my uncle that came back from China for the holidays and brought him over to my house since he needed a place to stay meanwhile on his trip back to SG. On that evening, Alice, (Apple's Mother) called me to join their reunion dinner at Clark Quay with her, apple and her sister. So I rushed down to CQ and met them up at Jumbo Seafood Restaurant. After dinner we walked to The Floating Platform then went to esplanade rooftop Orgo for drinks.
On the 10th Sunday (CNY Day 1) Woke up in the afternoon and went over to the family house to "Bai Nian" and Skype mommy. Then went home to take a short nap before meeting up with Sin and Szeto in the evening. We went to Wee Seng's house to gamble with everyone at Yishun then around midnight me Szeto and Sin made our way to Galaxy to met the rest Keith, Daryl, GS, Steph, Wei Jun, Natasha, Abby and their friends there. 2 towers of beer and 3 bottles of Martell later we all went home and got some rest for the next day!
February 11th (CNY Day 2) Slept the whole day then went over to Sin's house to gamble and eat before we headed to Playhouse for Round 2 with everyone.. Me & C, Mikey, Sin, Val, Timo, WeiJun, Abby, GS & Natasha, Szeto & Michelle, Keith, Wilson and much more! 4 bottles and 1 bottle of Champagne did the job for the night! Slept in with C the next morning, then went to meet Val and the shell boys up at Gek Poh before Val flies back to Australia that day then went home and prepare to book in.
Felt like a super long weekend, but definitely a great one. Just too bad had to book in, was having so much fun that I forgot I'm a soldier, sigh. Well too much drinking for the weekend time to tone down and lay low at home for the rest of the month!

Recap of January 2013/ Birthday Post

Hello everyone so I know I have been slacking on blogging lately but I'm gonna trying to recap the whole month of January right now. Even though I haven't been blogging but I still wrote down the highlights of every weekend in my phone, so here we go!

Recap of January 2013
1st Jan (Tue) : Went to Zouk with the boys, Val and Charms to celebrate New Year! Went to Spize after the club with everyone then went home to sleep, watched a movie with Sin after I woke up.
2nd Jan (Wed) : Catch up on my sleep. Sin came over to hang out then C come over at night to accompany me. Cooked breakfast for her in the morning then went over to the old place to do some final cleaning up.
5th Jan (Sat) : Watched Taxi Taxi with C at Jurong Point
6th Jan (Sun) : Went over to C's family lunch, met her whole family then went home to get a hair cut before booking in.
11th Jan (Fri) : Went to collect TV after booked out. Sin and C come over and we painted the wall. Went to Holland V for a double date with Sin and Steph after.
12th Jan (Sat) : Slept in with C, went to Pizza Hut for dinner before going to Zouk with Ray.
16th Jan (Wed) : Nights out! Met C at Tampines then we went to MOF Lena's for dinner then grab coffee at Starbucks with Guansan, Janvin and Gloria before booking in.
18th-20th Jan (Fri-Sun) : Outfield! Spend my birthday weekend in the jungle.
25th Jan (Fri) : House Warming/ Birthday Party at my house!
26th Jan (Sat) : Slept all day, woke up grab dinner at Jcube then Val, Guoren, Adel and Adeve came pick me up and we went to the "40 Lamp Posts, Shell then to Singapore Yacht Club then chilled at West Coast Park.
27th Jan (Sun) : Meet C at town then we went shopping for my CNY clothes then C treat me my birthday dinner at Sun with Moon Japanese Restaurant before I had to book in.

Additional Post: No Longer a Teenager
*Just an extra post I wrote during outfield on the night of my birthday*

It's my birthday today woohoo! Finally in my twenties now. I'm officially no longer a teenager anymore from today onwards. Due to outfield this weekend couldn't really celebrate my birthday this year properly and actually ended up spending my birthday in the jungle instead, but thanks to my awesome platoon mates, even though we are in the jungle they still manage to somewhat celebrated my birthday with me by making me a DIY birthday cake from butter biscuits and coffee then putting matchsticks on it as candles! Haha! So sweet of them! Anyways once the clock hit 12am me and Dan lit up my birthday present he gave me, a mini cigar he bought from his overseas trip to US and chilled through the night on the jeep. Of course had C accompany through the night too making me feel so loved haha! & just like that my 20th birthday is over. Gonna properly celebrate it this weekend though with everyone at my house!

Okay on the the important stuff, the stuff that's really in my mind. As everyday goes by, I can honestly say I'm living an amazing life, I'm happy with how things are going now. Although it cant be sunshine everyday but overall I'm quite a happy person now a days and everything is finally starting to go my way. All the stuff I been through in the past is what makes me who I am today. People may think I'm just another 20 year old kid but they have no idea what I been through, what I have seen with my own pair of eyes in just these 20 years. Although everything is going smoothly now but I will never forget my past, how I grew up and changed from a boy to a man. Even though im not as educated as the majority people out there but I can definitely say I'm much more street smart then most of the people who studied their ass off all their life. My mom always tells me, "Don't work hard, work smart'!" As a 20 year old, I pretty much have my life planned out already and know exactly what I want in life when most of the people my age are still uncertain on what they want to do in life, when as a 20 year old, I already have houses around the world, my own restaurant, amazing friends and family. What else can I ask for? Hopefully by the age of 25, I will have my own family and settled down by then so I can work my ass off til the age of 40 then retire and enjoy for rest of my life. Hopefully everything will go as planned since I choose this lifestyle since I was young. This is what I have always wanted and now it's time to put everything to work and show the world what I'm capable of. More then 20% of my life is over, just hope that the days will get better for me as the days goes by. Happy birthday to me :)

January 26th, 2013 "Random Deep Thoughts"

It's four in the morning and everyone just went back home after my house warming/ birthday party. Maybe it's all the liquor I drank tonight that got me thinking again. It's been awhile since I always have my deep thoughts. Nobody will ever know how I feel or what I think inside. Nobody will ever feel the pain in my heart, the tears I shed, the nights where I just feel shooting myself in the head and end everything once and for all. I will always try to appear as the happy kid, the kid with the smile on his face no matter what, the kid that always laughs and be that cheerful kinda guy, but nobody can ever see the real image behind the smile. I keep quiet about a thousand and one things, even close one eye sometimes but nothing is ever good enough. Life is fucking cruel, such is life, deal with it. My mood swings is getting out of hand too, it's like one moment we were all enjoying ourselves the next thing I know I just feel like absolutely shit, I just wanted alone time. Suddenly I remembered how nobody will ever really care about anyone other then themselves. It's an ugly world we live in seriously. I feel so fucking weak right now, I should be stronger then this. It's ridiculous. How many times does it take for me to learn my lesson, to give too much. People always come and go in my life, it's getting to the point where I am immune with my feelings. I'm so used to people walking out on me, that when somebody stays in my life I will feel its too good to be true. I'm just never good for anyone maybe. Friends, lovers, family all that shit is bullshit, at the end of the day you will still die alone. So much shit going through my mind right now, I need a huge hug and a good cry. I'm sick of these fake smiles and shit, I want to be genuinely happy. I'm only twenty this year but I feel like im a forty year old man trapped in a twenty years old body. I surprise myself sometimes too how no matter how bad things can get but I can still keep a smile in my face and act like everything is okay when deep down I'm hurting inside badly which slowly killing me softly. It's ridiculous how weak I sound right now, im stronger then this I thought. I just wish one day I can be genuinely happy and not ever have to make a fake smile again. Just gonna close my eyes and  try to get some sleep, gonna try to not think so much now and wake up tomorrow as in none of this ever happened.

December 30th, 2012 "Climbing Back Up"

The new ink, "The Only Easy Day Was Yesterday"

Sigh where to begin with this week's post. Anyways, after returning back from our KL trip, I caught a high fever 38.9 Celsius to be exact, sigh. So from the 23rd-26th of December I was feeling sick like a dog, being a sick baby at home. On Christmas eve I actually almost end up at the hospital after almost fainting in public. After a busy day of moving stuff over to the new house, I was gonna go back to Jurong East to grab some stuff when I lost control my body and my legs went numb. Luckily my uncle was out to pack some food and managed to see me on the way home. Went to the neighborhood clinic that night then crash over at the family house since I didnt want them to worry too much about me. After stuffing myself with medicine and grounding myself at home for 3 days straight, I couldnt take it anymore by the 3rd day. So stubborn me decided to head to Zouk with the boys on the 26th of December, Wednesday when I still had a high fever. Well actually, I was just feeling shitty overall that day, not just cause of being sick. I guess I just really wanted to get out the house. I guess it thought me a good lesson, just stay at home when you're feeling sick. Cause I totally didnt enjoy my night that night at all just made myself feel worst actually. Anyways after waking up the next day, surprisingly I felt much better and finally had energy to run all my errands again! So finally moved the remaining stuff over to the new house, settle all the stuff over at the new house and chill out with the bros for the next couple of days. By Saturday night the 29th of December, mostly everything was settled over the new house, just left with a spring cleaning, repaint the walls and buy the remaining furniture's before the house warming party on the 19th of January. Hopefully the house will be the way I planned it to be by then. Anyways after a couple days of recovering from my fever and settling all the stuff over at the new house, it was time to party again! Went to Zouk with the shell guys on the 29th of December, Saturday and the highlight of the night was we got into a fight that night. Well the story of what happened was that some guy decide to step Mr. Tough Guy pushing our group around in the dance floor but they didnt know they messed with the absolute wrong group. After pushing and shoving at the dancefloor the whole night, Zef initiated the fight but then one fella decided to grab my face that's when it all started. I lost my temper completely and wack his face until the girlfriend step in front of his and beg me to stop. We all got bounced out after that, but since the other group ran or went home, the bouncers let us back in so we just continued our night at Phuture as in nothing happened. Not trying to sound like a gangster or whatever, but some people just dont know their limits. Luckily my temper have became much better now compare to the old me. If I was still the old me that guy would of gotten it worst seriously. I've really changed just dont see the point in fighting anymore really, but that dude was really asking for it. Sigh anyways, enough of this gangster shit. Let me think what else is new? Oh, got a new ink today by Wilson! It's sort of a new year gift for myself after a rocky 2012 I had. Where I realized that as each day passes by its just gonna be tougher and tougher, its just part of growing up. Well partially cause of army too, it's also our reconnaissance platoon motto, the quote "The Only Easy Day Was Yesterday." Got it tattooed in my back, my first back tattoo! Oh god, really starting to become a ink addict already just got my swallow done like a month ago and now got a new piece already. Not gonna lie, I secretly love it haha. Actually planning for my next project already. I think im gonna be covered in ink as I grow older each year and the parents are definitely gonna fuck me hard when they see all my new ink, oh wells.

Okay, well there's something I've been keeping inside too that I need to let out. Alright so I know I've been talking about this S a lot recently but never really properly introduce her yet. Well gonna do that now finally. We met on November 30th, her name is Sharalyn. She's actually one of Joelyn's friend and colleague, and we went to Zouk that night and thats how we met. That night itself she got really wasted and being the nice guy I am, I took care of her that night. And I guess that's when we kicked it off from there, and ever since then we have been spending a lot of time with each other and getting to know each other better. Well in a way all good things always come to an end at some point and that's what happened exactly. I guess the whole thing lasted about a month I would say. Long story short is that, the boyfriend wasnt treating her right, she wanted a better person then she met me and we had feeling for each other. After about a month of being together, the boyfriend finally woke up and realized what he had after its gone and decided to be a good boyfriend again finally and tried to get her back. Well the thing is that S thought she got over him already, but the fact was that she still loved him. So after having a heart to heart talk again they decided to patch back again, which left me all alone all over again. One of the best feelings in the world is when you go through the honeymoon period with someone you just met, but the thing with the honeymoon period is that it doesn't last forever. With S, she can make me smile to my phone all day long. I felt like a small boy falling in love again with this her. Well I know how I said after Alyson, it's time to live my life and go my own thing. Well in a way, being in a relationship and settling down is what I have always wanted to do from the start. In a way I told myself no more relationships after my Alyson, at least until I return back to the states, especially the fact that I'm only gonna be in Singapore for about 8-9 more months only, but then again after thinking about it why not give it another shot, just one last time maybe. If I do end up hurt again, I will just need to get back up and move on like I always do in life. Then again there goes me hoping for that fairy tale miracle again. In this one month of what me and S had, I actually learn something new about myself. I realized I can never be those guys that live their life to the fullest, party like no tomorrow type. I will always be the type that choose cuddling at home with the girlfriend then go out with the boys anyday. I just don't want to waste anymore time. 8 more months in Singapore, that gives me 8 months to get to know someone, from complete strangers to my everything maybe. Just cause one failed, doesnt mean I should just give up on this thing call love. In this one month together, I also learn that I should slow things down when I meet someone new, me & S really moved way too fast like she said, in just one month, we were gonna like move in together. She was like the perfect housewife type in my eyes, we talked about the future like we had a clue, talk about our life in the US together in the future and such when the fact is that I barely even know this girl. I've learn that there is no point thinking so far when I havent fully know someone yet. No point to plan so far, when every time the plans just go to waste. Most importantly, I wanna make sure the next person that falls in love with me will be able to love me for who I am. I need to women to be my side, go through the thick and thin with me, grow old with me, be my everything, someone that can control me, someone that will love me genuinely. I might not be as rich or handsome as other guys around, but what I can promise is that I'm genuine and I'm loyal. I will do anything for the people I love. I'm willing to work my ass off and suffer for my family, that's just the kind of guy I am. Well, lets just hope that a miracle or karma will happen eventually, returning me the favor for always being the nice guy around, show me a real women that wants everything I want. Unfortunately Sharalyn just couldnt be the girl for me, but I got to admit im very happy for her and her boyfriend Marcus. They look good together really, and they both seems like they genuinely love each other now and this one month away from each other really taught them two a lesson. Well I wish nothing but the best for them, hope that they can be always happy together! Yupp, the trust is that I've fallen once again, but this time I didnt get hurt as bad so I guess it's a win win situation afterall. Lots of lesson learn in just one month, so many things happened in just one month. Imagine what can happen in 8 months! Just need to get my ass back up and carry on with my life now. Time to get to know more people and make more friends meanwhile! 

Just gonna keep that smile on my face and carry on with life.

December 23rd, 2012 "Our Mini Getaway"

Finally reached my condo after a 5hr ride from SG to KL.

The group before we head out. Daryl, GS, Stanley, Me, Sin & Szeto

The Groupie at Live @ KL

Me & Daryl near the KLCC Tower

Finally our block leave started this week. We all booked out on Tuesday night on the 18th. Spent a final night with S before moving out to KL with the boys the next morning. So here we go, Day 1 of KL. Reached home at my condo after a 5 hours bus ride, dropped off our bags back at home then we headed to Viva to grab lunch and bought some groceries for the house then went back home to chill and plan where to go for our first night in KL. Finally decided on Bukit Bintang after hours and hours of looking at the map and off we go to the city! Our first stop was at Time Square for dinner at some Chinese restaurant, but due to me being emo and angry about some stuff, I didn't join the boys for dinner and went to grab dinner myself instead. Just my  temper and ego problem really, looking back now I was acting damn childish that day. Anyways after dinner we made our first stop at Live @ KL. Live was like a Thai disco venue, we drank about 3 towers of beer there then we headed to Zouk KL for the night! Awesome night we had there, ended up seeing lots of Singaporeans too and we all formed a group ourselves. It was like international night at KL, met people from all around the world from Europe, Middle East, Thailand, Korea, Taiwan, etc! Well lets just say all of us got quite drunk that night. After the club we went back to the condo, grab some supper at the Prata shop near my house then we all of KO'ed until the next afternoon. Day 2 of KL, all woke up with a semi hangover, all felt like shit after a hardcore night of partying! Really like the movie The Hangover, the scene where they all just woke up after a long night of partying, trying to recall what happened the night before and looking back at the pictures we took in the camera and laughing our asses off! Went downstairs to grab lunch before we headed to Sungei Wang for some shopping. After shopping we walked around the city and took some pictures till we were all tired. After a long day of walking around we went back to the condo and ate some delicious KL Bak Kut Teh and watch some DVD's we bought then we called it a night. Day 3 was our last night at KL, we went back to Sungei Wang to get more shopping done and to get our last minute Christmas gifts too then grabbed dinner near my condo and finally ate our Teow Chew porridge after craving it for numerous days in KL, ended up ordering Claypot chicken rice, Udon, Ribs noddles with the porridge too! All of us ate until wanna puke! After dinner we went for a late night swim for our final night in KL, follow by beer and movie back at home before going back to Singapore the very next morning. So that was it, our awesome 4D3N in Kuala Lumpur, our mini getaway.

Finally reached back in Singapore in the afternoon of 22nd of December. Suddenly start to feel very sick when once I reached home but since I promised S that I will accompany her for her Company Christmas dinner that night. So went to fetch S from work after a short nap, then we headed off to her Coy dinner at Bedok with her colleagues which was actually so near my camp! After the dinner and present exchanges, we went over to my camp mate Dan's 21st birthday at The Club Hotel in Chinatown. Even though I was having a fever and feeling like shit but gotta be there for the bro on his birthday especially after I promised him! Worst mistake I made that night was to drink vodka with the birthday boy when I was already having a fever. Fucking hell made my body hotter and started to really feel like dying after drinking the Vodka. After his birthday celebration, we were supposed to go to Zouk to celebrate Szeto's birthday too but I was really feeling like shit that night, so me and S went home and rest early and called it a night. Been feeling sick as hell today too, sweated off the fever last night while I was sleeping, and spammed Panadol like nobody business for the first time in my life since S keep forcing me to take my medicines, sad life me. Well did manage to get some good news today though. I've finally got the keys to my new house, damn sexited to move in to the new place I tell ya! After Skyping with mommy, I couldn't wait to go home and share the good news with S! When I told her she was damn exited too. We were like a new couple that's moving to a new house together, so cute! We went to look at the house straight after that then after checking the house we then headed to IKEA for some Swedish meatballs and started my crazy furniture shopping! After a long day settling the stuff at the new house, my fever came back at night and really started to feel like shit again, S was being a sweetheart took care of me this sick boy then we both crashed over at the new place that night. Hopefully I will fell better soon, especially before Christmas!

Taking that Guardsman pride to KL.

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Me & Sin on the coach and yes im sitting on Szeto.

Me & Daryl in front of Viva.