Sidetrack: Alone Time

It's been a while since I updated my blog. Well I'm gonna side track a bit, I will update with everything when I get the time I promise. A lot have been going on in my head recently, and the main thing is that I dont feel like myself lately. I dont even know who I really am anymore. Maybe is cause of all this sudden changes, how I'm adapting back to my old life too soon. I just need a lot of alone time right now to get myself back.  I really miss home, and when I say the word home now it's Singapore. I will just stay up looking at all our pictures over and over and again and think back to all the good times we had. So much have been going on in my head, there is still a lot of unsolved problems and things unsaid I feel. I dont even know what im doing right now is right or wrong, it's hurting so much. Alcohol and cigarettes are my temporary fix at the moment. I just miss you, I wish you were here.