December 30th, 2012 "Climbing Back Up"

The new ink, "The Only Easy Day Was Yesterday"

Sigh where to begin with this week's post. Anyways, after returning back from our KL trip, I caught a high fever 38.9 Celsius to be exact, sigh. So from the 23rd-26th of December I was feeling sick like a dog, being a sick baby at home. On Christmas eve I actually almost end up at the hospital after almost fainting in public. After a busy day of moving stuff over to the new house, I was gonna go back to Jurong East to grab some stuff when I lost control my body and my legs went numb. Luckily my uncle was out to pack some food and managed to see me on the way home. Went to the neighborhood clinic that night then crash over at the family house since I didnt want them to worry too much about me. After stuffing myself with medicine and grounding myself at home for 3 days straight, I couldnt take it anymore by the 3rd day. So stubborn me decided to head to Zouk with the boys on the 26th of December, Wednesday when I still had a high fever. Well actually, I was just feeling shitty overall that day, not just cause of being sick. I guess I just really wanted to get out the house. I guess it thought me a good lesson, just stay at home when you're feeling sick. Cause I totally didnt enjoy my night that night at all just made myself feel worst actually. Anyways after waking up the next day, surprisingly I felt much better and finally had energy to run all my errands again! So finally moved the remaining stuff over to the new house, settle all the stuff over at the new house and chill out with the bros for the next couple of days. By Saturday night the 29th of December, mostly everything was settled over the new house, just left with a spring cleaning, repaint the walls and buy the remaining furniture's before the house warming party on the 19th of January. Hopefully the house will be the way I planned it to be by then. Anyways after a couple days of recovering from my fever and settling all the stuff over at the new house, it was time to party again! Went to Zouk with the shell guys on the 29th of December, Saturday and the highlight of the night was we got into a fight that night. Well the story of what happened was that some guy decide to step Mr. Tough Guy pushing our group around in the dance floor but they didnt know they messed with the absolute wrong group. After pushing and shoving at the dancefloor the whole night, Zef initiated the fight but then one fella decided to grab my face that's when it all started. I lost my temper completely and wack his face until the girlfriend step in front of his and beg me to stop. We all got bounced out after that, but since the other group ran or went home, the bouncers let us back in so we just continued our night at Phuture as in nothing happened. Not trying to sound like a gangster or whatever, but some people just dont know their limits. Luckily my temper have became much better now compare to the old me. If I was still the old me that guy would of gotten it worst seriously. I've really changed just dont see the point in fighting anymore really, but that dude was really asking for it. Sigh anyways, enough of this gangster shit. Let me think what else is new? Oh, got a new ink today by Wilson! It's sort of a new year gift for myself after a rocky 2012 I had. Where I realized that as each day passes by its just gonna be tougher and tougher, its just part of growing up. Well partially cause of army too, it's also our reconnaissance platoon motto, the quote "The Only Easy Day Was Yesterday." Got it tattooed in my back, my first back tattoo! Oh god, really starting to become a ink addict already just got my swallow done like a month ago and now got a new piece already. Not gonna lie, I secretly love it haha. Actually planning for my next project already. I think im gonna be covered in ink as I grow older each year and the parents are definitely gonna fuck me hard when they see all my new ink, oh wells.

Okay, well there's something I've been keeping inside too that I need to let out. Alright so I know I've been talking about this S a lot recently but never really properly introduce her yet. Well gonna do that now finally. We met on November 30th, her name is Sharalyn. She's actually one of Joelyn's friend and colleague, and we went to Zouk that night and thats how we met. That night itself she got really wasted and being the nice guy I am, I took care of her that night. And I guess that's when we kicked it off from there, and ever since then we have been spending a lot of time with each other and getting to know each other better. Well in a way all good things always come to an end at some point and that's what happened exactly. I guess the whole thing lasted about a month I would say. Long story short is that, the boyfriend wasnt treating her right, she wanted a better person then she met me and we had feeling for each other. After about a month of being together, the boyfriend finally woke up and realized what he had after its gone and decided to be a good boyfriend again finally and tried to get her back. Well the thing is that S thought she got over him already, but the fact was that she still loved him. So after having a heart to heart talk again they decided to patch back again, which left me all alone all over again. One of the best feelings in the world is when you go through the honeymoon period with someone you just met, but the thing with the honeymoon period is that it doesn't last forever. With S, she can make me smile to my phone all day long. I felt like a small boy falling in love again with this her. Well I know how I said after Alyson, it's time to live my life and go my own thing. Well in a way, being in a relationship and settling down is what I have always wanted to do from the start. In a way I told myself no more relationships after my Alyson, at least until I return back to the states, especially the fact that I'm only gonna be in Singapore for about 8-9 more months only, but then again after thinking about it why not give it another shot, just one last time maybe. If I do end up hurt again, I will just need to get back up and move on like I always do in life. Then again there goes me hoping for that fairy tale miracle again. In this one month of what me and S had, I actually learn something new about myself. I realized I can never be those guys that live their life to the fullest, party like no tomorrow type. I will always be the type that choose cuddling at home with the girlfriend then go out with the boys anyday. I just don't want to waste anymore time. 8 more months in Singapore, that gives me 8 months to get to know someone, from complete strangers to my everything maybe. Just cause one failed, doesnt mean I should just give up on this thing call love. In this one month together, I also learn that I should slow things down when I meet someone new, me & S really moved way too fast like she said, in just one month, we were gonna like move in together. She was like the perfect housewife type in my eyes, we talked about the future like we had a clue, talk about our life in the US together in the future and such when the fact is that I barely even know this girl. I've learn that there is no point thinking so far when I havent fully know someone yet. No point to plan so far, when every time the plans just go to waste. Most importantly, I wanna make sure the next person that falls in love with me will be able to love me for who I am. I need to women to be my side, go through the thick and thin with me, grow old with me, be my everything, someone that can control me, someone that will love me genuinely. I might not be as rich or handsome as other guys around, but what I can promise is that I'm genuine and I'm loyal. I will do anything for the people I love. I'm willing to work my ass off and suffer for my family, that's just the kind of guy I am. Well, lets just hope that a miracle or karma will happen eventually, returning me the favor for always being the nice guy around, show me a real women that wants everything I want. Unfortunately Sharalyn just couldnt be the girl for me, but I got to admit im very happy for her and her boyfriend Marcus. They look good together really, and they both seems like they genuinely love each other now and this one month away from each other really taught them two a lesson. Well I wish nothing but the best for them, hope that they can be always happy together! Yupp, the trust is that I've fallen once again, but this time I didnt get hurt as bad so I guess it's a win win situation afterall. Lots of lesson learn in just one month, so many things happened in just one month. Imagine what can happen in 8 months! Just need to get my ass back up and carry on with my life now. Time to get to know more people and make more friends meanwhile! 

Just gonna keep that smile on my face and carry on with life.