July 9th 2012 "Changes .."

We talked what happened that night and I have to say I feel much better after we chatted. We ended up laughing about it. That's how close we are. It's actually my fault for being so paranoid, I was angry at myself angry at the world. I wasn't being myself towards her and made her worried, even made her think that I wanted to break up with her. Seeing her cry breaks my heart, I don't wanna see my baby girl cry. After chatting with her and talking about things she said she want to test me, so next week she will be going to sentosa and USS with her friend and that guy again, then the following saturday they're going on a 2D1N trip together at Johor. Although it worries me deeply and if it was the old me I would strictly said no to it but its okay, I decided that she should go and enjoy. I don't have the right to control what she wants to do, I should be able to trust her and learn how to be less paranoid about things. Beside I still have a lifetime to spend with each other. She really brings out the best in me, changing my ways. I love her so much.